I feel like I can’t win as a parent. Like this system has been rigged to ensure my failure. We’re kind of damaged and the odds are stacked against us.
I’m pretty sure my kids preschool hates him because he’s a stubborn little shit who figured out really quick that he can play them. But it’s so much more than that because he is sad and needy and he misses his daddy and is afraid of losing his mommy.
I love him so much but sometimes I feel like just giving up. Like I’m doomed to fail anyway so maybe it’s ok to just lay down and just stop existing. Of course I know better. If I stop existing he’ll just shatter.
Life is complicated. I’m not really smart enough to untangle this knot we’ve been woven into. I just want my broken family to heal and feel some happiness and order and success.
Just Another Single Mother 